I hated reading and writing as a kid. I’d do anything I could to avoid actually reading that chapter for my Literature class. This resulted in me never getting my homework done and staying after school for what they called a teacher’s assigned detention. Oh, how I hated those dreaded book reports. Looking back, I’ve come to realize how silly I was by going through all kinds of effort to avoid getting my work done. Now, if we fast forward a few years, QUITE a few, I’m continually reading one thing or another. I’ve concluded that keeping a daily journal is the best thing a guy like myself can do.
A few years back, I was diagnosed with a severe anxiety disorder, whatever the heck that means, haha! I could never begin to explain how anxiety affects most people, but I know for sure how it affects me. On those days when I’m feeling overly anxious, I throw several childish temper tantrums and swear to God that the entire universe is out to get little old me. Because ya know, the whole world revolves around me. HAHA!
Then, when I come back to reality, I have a good chuckle about how ridiculous it all seems. As if the world is actually out to get me? Get real! Everyone has his/her own life and issues to deal with, and I’m sure, at times, everyone feels this way. It wasn’t until I started keeping a journal that I recognized what triggers my anxiety. It’s taken years of discipline because it’s easy to write on those days where I’m feeling like I’m on top of the world, and nothing can stop me. It’s essential for me to write in my journal on those days when I’m an emotional mess. Now I could ramble on and on about how I deal with my anxiety on a daily basis, but today I’m here to talk about why I love writing.
I love writing because it helps me deal with my anxiety. I’ve realized that I have about twelve different personalities that I can identify, which is very helpful when creating different characters to write about. Of course, I’m nothing more than an amateur at this point, but I’ve learned to embrace the qualities I used to see as unfavorable. Writing helps me find the balance I need in life. It gives me the outlet I need to express everything that’s bothering me. I hate telling other people about some of the things I’m going through. Which is why keeping a journal is so vital.
Writing in a journal every day helps me vent all my inner frustrations and release all of that negative energy that builds up. Only it doesn’t build up for me so much now that I’ve developed some good habits and learned what triggers my anxiety issues. And the best part about a journal is I don’t have to show it to anybody. I see it as the best possible form of therapy for a guy such as myself.
Deciding to quit drinking alcohol was the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do in my life. I had to be a thousand percent honest with myself and admit I had a problem. I had to admit that a massive part of my actual lifestyle was having a tremendously negative impact on every other aspect of my life. That type of honesty certainly can’t be put into words. Writing helps me capture the essence of that honesty. I need that type of openness to maintain a positive balance in my life. I’ve come to realize that it doesn’t have to be perfect; it merely has to be routine. Everything else will take care of itself.
Thank you for taking the time to read my post. Have a great day!